I am having a tough time with my kids lately. It doesn’t help that they are out of school for another week. I will always love my boys, but today I am finding it difficult to like them. Everything they do bothers me. I feel like Queen Aggravain from the musical Once Upon a Mattress. I just want it to be quiet. “Quiet, quiet, the Queen insists on quiet”. I have asked the boys to be quiet while eating, and they continued to be loud and silly. I told the boys to shut up and that only achieved 30 seconds of quiet. (”Shut up, shut up? Mom never said shut up”. From Sleepless in Seattle) I have been able to keep my cool (meaning I haven’t yelled). But man, am I an ornery one today. Because of a crazy work schedule, Daniel has been working nights and sleeping during the day. Thankfully, David (Daniel’s brother) is here for the weekend, so I was able to leave for a few hours to get away.
I am pretty sure that I know why my hormones are so out of control. I was pregnant, not very far along, but I’m not now. I know that my body is just trying to regulate itself and all of that jazz. I have had post partum depression with the last two and I’m sure that I am just getting a taste of it all. Thankfully, just a taste since I wasn’t too far into the pregnancy. This makes me second guess wanting another child, because the first few months after the baby have been hellish for me (and my family). I don’t know, it’s difficult to know what to do sometimes.
