So Tired

I have been so exhausted this past week.  I seriously have a difficult time staying awake for longer than 3 hours at a time during the day.  This exhaustion is seriously interfering with my parenting.

On Tuesday Mark and Paul left for the bus at 8:20.  I sat down on the couch upstairs and leaned my head against the back.  I fell asleep and didn't wake up until 9:10.  Seth was playing the computer downstairs and he was supposed to be at preschool at 9.  I got him to school, came home and took another nap.  I set my alarm so that I wouldn't be late to pick him up.

Wednesday was a weird day for me.  Daniel has been sick and has been working long hours for work, so I knew that I for sure needed to get up with the boys in the morning.  When I came to and looked at the clock, it was 8:55 in the morning.  I jolted out of bed to find Seth sitting in the living room playing with the dolls I have been making and Mark and Paul's backpacks and coats gone.

Mark and Paul got ready for school all by themselves.  They ate breakfast and cleaned up, brushed their teeth, and got off to the bus on time.  Paul even emptied the dishwasher!  I was a bit surprised, yet relieved.  One part of me feels very proud that they were able to be responsible enough to get ready without parental supervision.  The other part of me feels extremely guilty because I wasn't there to see them off to school.  I always want to be available to them when they are coming and going, and I failed.

They got out of school early for Spring Break, and I had them keep track of the time so that they wouldn't be late for scouts.  The thing is, is that I knew that they didn't have scouts that day, but my brain was wired to send them to scouts on Wednesday, so I did.  (Sorry for sending Mark to your house Shelley!)

Thursday was an auspicious beginning to a 3 week break.  The boys were so cranky!  I thought that if this is the way this off-track time is going to be that we are all in a lot of trouble.  Daniel took them over to Uncle Ben's house to play with their cousins.  They did a 180 and were supper happy and fun to be around. 

All three boys spent the night at Ben's house last night.  Daniel and I went shopping together and stayed up until midnight talking.  I knew that I could sleep in, so it wasn't a big deal to stay up late.  Well, I woke up at 5 a.m. and couldn't fall back asleep!  I was able to get all of my old journal entries put into a blog to print!  I finally finished!  I went back to sleep around 7:30 and woke up at 10.    It is nearing noon, so I need to go get the boys.

I feel like I am having a difficult time thinking and concentrating.  The last few posts I have written have been rather random and I think that it is because I can't form two coherent thoughts together.  I attribute that to my exhaustion!